My way to heaven/hell

My way to heaven

I wonder how hard it is for me just to climb the ladder

But after I have tired many many times

Can I receive what I want?

No，nothing......

Maybe nothing is a fib

But I can't find the one I desire

Where is it？

Have it been missing?

Missing in darkness

Tell me

Never forever

Nothing could make me happy except you

Actually however

You don't want to make me happy,right?

If not,could you please tell me why?

I really wonder why?

When I have something wrong in my life

I know you have known something that was not as usual

Why don't you asked me why?

Why don't you asked me what things have happened to me?

Why don't you asked me if I am down for you?

Why?

The only way to the heaven

The only way to take me to the heaven

The only way to make me feel really happy

Nowadays，is you

But in future

I don't know who will be this person

I have told you for times and times

you are the one can make me laughing and the one can make me crying just for a simple word

Do you know?

You are the one who can control my everything

For a word

I maybe feel happy for a whole day

I maybe cry until a sad dawn arrives

Don't you know?

Now

I am crying for you

If you don't

Now

Let me tell you

Please make my way to heaven

But on the contrary

You are the one who cause me sad for almost a month

And after reading this passage

You could know my feeling

In this dark month

I cry

I pretend to be happy

I put myself into studyaholic

I really miss you

Miss you so much

I can't deny missing you

Is you

Make my way to hell

I can't suffer anymore

If you want to continue to do this

Please take away evrthing which could remind me of you

Please wipe out my memorizes forever

Please now kill me

Eat me up

Drink my blood

Bite my bones

Leave me nothing

Kill me

Don't hesitate

Use your sharp knife

I am waiting for you

My way to where?

Depend on you......

Make promise become real promise